Sexuality
Okay so this post is abit more interesting and very personal. Lets talk about sexuality. To me your sexuality does not make who you are. Whether you are gay, straight, Bi or neither of any, nobody should be judged on who they are attracted too. You get the small minded people who think anything other than straight is a crime. Then you get the small minded people who will also buzz off two girls together?! Where is the balance in that? We are in the 21st century and if I want to go to a lesbian orgy I will put on some lipstick and go! Then the next day be back swiping hot boys on tinder.. It doesn't matter. So I'm going to open up about my sexuality and I don't give a shit what your opinion is because I am happy.
Ever since I was younger maybe 13, I remember seeing porn for the first time. More disgusted than anything, Penises are just the most ugliest thing IMO. Anyone that knows me personally knows I hate penis anywhere near me, they make me bawk. But what fascinated me more was the women on the video. (yes video it's that old) Getting that first twinge, heavy breathing, feeling myself getting worked up watching the women come together when the men go out of the shot. My thoughts are all over the place. I had never been attracted to girls before, you where always in dumb virgin relationships through school. Where you write your top 10 fittest boys and share it with your friend, that sort. So having these new feelings towards the same sex was all new to me, but exciting. Now ofcourse nothing happened regarding this during high school years but the thoughts were always there. Okay that is not counting all the drunk snogs you gave your best friends after you all downed bottles of Lambrini on the school fields. But those where never sexual, just drunken friendly games.
I didn't actually have my first female sexual experience until I was 20. I was living in Ibiza and had 0 interest in boys by this point. Splitting with an ex boyfriend after 3 and a half years, anyone with a dick was the devil. My bar job in Ibiza required me to work with 3 other girls and basically just get drunk, party and get paid. Easy I know. But there was a small blonde girl I worked with who was also bi-sexual and we instantly connected.. We were always kissing, drunk on the dancefloor. No complaints from my boss because we were hired to make sure guys stayed in the club anyway, so what's more entertaining to a group of stags? But anyway yeah, one night things escalated towards the end of the night and we ended up in the toilets together. Classy I know. But after lots of fondling and abit more, lets just say legs are everywhere, we just see our bosses head appear over the toilet door shouting as us. I'll never forget that moment. I didn't live it down. I called in sick the next night and received this text.
We continued to kiss ect at work but nothing else had happened since. Then I met another girl a few months in who was a rep out there who I had actually matched on Tinder before I even flew out to Ibiza. We were both ecstatic to see eachother and she use to come to my work and wait for me to finish my shift. We would do the long stroll home together stopping every chance we could to kiss. It was her birthday one night and we done the same routine and went back to hers this time. I guess I gave her a birthday to remember. I was her first girl. It was all just exciting and different. It felt amazing, more gentle, and I agree a girl knows what a girl likes.
Since moving back to the UK, I havn't really had any female intimacy. Unless you call sticking your thumb up your best friends vagina in a drunken mess one night at her Uni flat. I still message girls ect and I'm happily enough to date them, as I am still attracted to girls most definitely. I had a brief fling the end of 2016 for a few months with an old friend which truly was amazing. Best friends, girlfriends and just really happy. But lived such separate lives things just didn't work out. So here I am now, single, still bi sexual, but to be honest not ready to settle down yet as I'm still finding my feet in life.
Ever since I was younger maybe 13, I remember seeing porn for the first time. More disgusted than anything, Penises are just the most ugliest thing IMO. Anyone that knows me personally knows I hate penis anywhere near me, they make me bawk. But what fascinated me more was the women on the video. (yes video it's that old) Getting that first twinge, heavy breathing, feeling myself getting worked up watching the women come together when the men go out of the shot. My thoughts are all over the place. I had never been attracted to girls before, you where always in dumb virgin relationships through school. Where you write your top 10 fittest boys and share it with your friend, that sort. So having these new feelings towards the same sex was all new to me, but exciting. Now ofcourse nothing happened regarding this during high school years but the thoughts were always there. Okay that is not counting all the drunk snogs you gave your best friends after you all downed bottles of Lambrini on the school fields. But those where never sexual, just drunken friendly games.
I didn't actually have my first female sexual experience until I was 20. I was living in Ibiza and had 0 interest in boys by this point. Splitting with an ex boyfriend after 3 and a half years, anyone with a dick was the devil. My bar job in Ibiza required me to work with 3 other girls and basically just get drunk, party and get paid. Easy I know. But there was a small blonde girl I worked with who was also bi-sexual and we instantly connected.. We were always kissing, drunk on the dancefloor. No complaints from my boss because we were hired to make sure guys stayed in the club anyway, so what's more entertaining to a group of stags? But anyway yeah, one night things escalated towards the end of the night and we ended up in the toilets together. Classy I know. But after lots of fondling and abit more, lets just say legs are everywhere, we just see our bosses head appear over the toilet door shouting as us. I'll never forget that moment. I didn't live it down. I called in sick the next night and received this text.
We continued to kiss ect at work but nothing else had happened since. Then I met another girl a few months in who was a rep out there who I had actually matched on Tinder before I even flew out to Ibiza. We were both ecstatic to see eachother and she use to come to my work and wait for me to finish my shift. We would do the long stroll home together stopping every chance we could to kiss. It was her birthday one night and we done the same routine and went back to hers this time. I guess I gave her a birthday to remember. I was her first girl. It was all just exciting and different. It felt amazing, more gentle, and I agree a girl knows what a girl likes.
Since moving back to the UK, I havn't really had any female intimacy. Unless you call sticking your thumb up your best friends vagina in a drunken mess one night at her Uni flat. I still message girls ect and I'm happily enough to date them, as I am still attracted to girls most definitely. I had a brief fling the end of 2016 for a few months with an old friend which truly was amazing. Best friends, girlfriends and just really happy. But lived such separate lives things just didn't work out. So here I am now, single, still bi sexual, but to be honest not ready to settle down yet as I'm still finding my feet in life.
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